Normal?

In the past week I have tried to live a normal life, at least a normal life for me.

In most regards, I have failed miserably:

-I have not had typical sleep patterns... well, I guess worse than usual.

-I have not had typical eating patterns.

-I have not had typical work patterns.

-I have not had typical crying patterns... which, really means I have just cried.

-I have spent too much time thinking and then time refusing to think.

In some ways, I have created a new normal.

Life has been messy in the last nine days. But there are people who have been there for me through the mess.

Life has been beautiful in the last nine days. But, this is a different kind of beautiful.

Life has been filled with a million emotions. But, some that I do not appreciate.

It has been hard and messy, emotion filled and draining. It has been reckless and unpredictable.

It has been a wonderful and real example of community.

It has been life and for now I guess thats a new normal.